Life's Too Short

I should really be finishing my Marine Current Turbine essay tonight but I feel like being lazy for a bit more. Had my usual dosage of Bejeweled 2 and since I have been checking my emails every other hour, the only option left is to update my blog. Somehow my productivity declined the moment I told Andre that I would not be going for the Whiskey Tour tomorrow.

What actually happened was that most of my coursemates will be going for a whiskey tour tomorrow. The tour includes visits to two distilleries and whiskey tasting (optional of course!). One of the distilleries is in fact the oldest one in Scotland. Besides that, the tour will also be going to Loch Catrina and a famous park which i can't recall the name at the moment. I was not planning on going at the beginning. But, last night, on our way to Gemma's house warming party, I found out that two people changed their minds and Andre is having problems finding replacements. Somehow took pity on him because he put a lot of effort into organising the tour.

However, during the party I started to think that I would not be maximising the trip. I am only going because they will be vising Loch Katrina and the park. But, what if it rains? I have everything to lose. I will be miserable and almost £30 poorer. And this morning, the weather forecast confirms my worry. Rain and thunderstorm approaching highlands. And so, I told him that I am not going because I really do not feel like going. I feel sorry and guilty but not guilty enough to force myself to go. Life's too short for me to be doing things that I don't want to. The days when I will go to extreme ends to help people are over. The efforts are solely for me, my family and my close friends.

What happened to the old me? I am still looking for the answer myself actually. The only reason I could come out with at the moment is because I feel that some 'friends' took advantage of my kindness too often. Only remembering that I exist when they need something from me. How convenient.