I am suppose to start work today. But i didn't. I decided to extend my leave until next year. So, here i am, home alone with Sarah, who is thankfully still peacefully sleeping. Really cannot imagine what it will be like to start work again and having to leave her at home. As of now, I am already feeling like a bad mom for not being able to fully breastfeed her. Now, nak tinggalkan dia for so many hours a day pulak tuh.Wonder if she will miss me while i am away for work.
I know i should be recharged and be able to start work full swing come new year but am not feeling it at all. Partly because i still cannot fit into almost all of my working clothes. Had to buy a few last week. Yes, just a few because i do not want to get too comfortable with the new size. Hopefully i will not bump into Dr evil so soon. It was hurtful enough having to hear him say over and over again that i was so big while i was pregnant and even his wife who was carrying twins pun tak sebesar i.If I have to hear him say how big i am now post pregnancy, i might just scream. Perhaps i should have done that before, so insensitive, verbally harassing heavily pregnant woman. Termengumpat pulak.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Friday, November 25, 2011
Friday
Finally, it's Friday. I will get to see him today! Today is Day 29 of pantang. It sure felt like forever. I enjoy spending time with Sarah and taking care of her. I dont mind the pantang food and dos and donts. But what i cannot take it is not seeing D everyday. I really think that husbands should be given maternity leave too or should i say paternity leave. This is the time when you need your husband the most.
I suppose it is not so much of an issue if you get to pantang in the comfort of your own home. But when you have to pantang in your hometown which is hours away and only get to see your husbands on weekends, now that's another story. At least for me. I can't do long distance. I don't know how everyone else does it but it so does not work for me. I wish they could understand this. i get stressed and depressed when we are apart. so not good for someone in pantang.
If everything goes to plan, we only have to be apart for 3 more days. Need to get everyone to agree first. now, that can be really tricky. Wish me luck :P
I suppose it is not so much of an issue if you get to pantang in the comfort of your own home. But when you have to pantang in your hometown which is hours away and only get to see your husbands on weekends, now that's another story. At least for me. I can't do long distance. I don't know how everyone else does it but it so does not work for me. I wish they could understand this. i get stressed and depressed when we are apart. so not good for someone in pantang.
If everything goes to plan, we only have to be apart for 3 more days. Need to get everyone to agree first. now, that can be really tricky. Wish me luck :P
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